Been back here in Garland helping mom at Deli. Today is two weeks. Came with intention of helping her until help arrives. Doing well to that intention. Figured if i'm reading books and watching movies might as well do it in Dallas helping mother. Spent some nice time at alamo park near ma's deli under a grove of trees on a park bench. Checking shitload of great films from the library!
Been helping ma open early by making soi, two greens and one purple, with mung and coco and salt/sugar mix. Doing well to get things done by escaping thru music, audiobooks, and film. Almost got involved in an live-in pet sitter situation. Sold one gun for Lu! felt amazing, like I was closer to my dream of being a traveling salesman!
Looking at my options of returning to Berkeley and when or other options for the summer, Flagstaff? Stay in Garland? Went out with siblings back to Mesquite and saw growth, change, sameness. Had wingstop and shared intimacies with Aunt Van from Viet Nam over the shoulder conversation.
May 20, 2007
April 01, 2007
January 06, 2007
Had a bad day/week
“Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.”
My sister, Jessica has been a great friend in my life. I am grateful for the one time she saved me from a deep depression when I was in San Francisco 1/06/07 Journal entry:
weird fucking day. very emotional sad. depressed not keen to future then talk with jessica, a travel companion yeah! So important in life to have a good companion. needed to breathe went to walk Presidio park. nice. very tall trees. realized i need to travel again. why travel. done the loneliness thing. done the boredom thing now i know what i don't want from experience of pain. i want partnership a sharing of hugs. Got out of the depression by talking to Jessica.
My sister, Jessica has been a great friend in my life. I am grateful for the one time she saved me from a deep depression when I was in San Francisco 1/06/07 Journal entry:
weird fucking day. very emotional sad. depressed not keen to future then talk with jessica, a travel companion yeah! So important in life to have a good companion. needed to breathe went to walk Presidio park. nice. very tall trees. realized i need to travel again. why travel. done the loneliness thing. done the boredom thing now i know what i don't want from experience of pain. i want partnership a sharing of hugs. Got out of the depression by talking to Jessica.
October 10, 2006
San Francisco, CA Mission Branch Library "Dreams"
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
| San Francisco, CA Mission Branch Library "Dreams" They say you should be careful what you wish for. Not today, I get to dream. I dream of far away places. I dream of being with someone who loves me deeply. I dream of hang-gliding, riding motorcycles in Vietnam, taking a romantic train ride through Russia, playing a guitar, making meals for friends, making small contributions along the way. I dream of having lots and lots of money, just swimming in it, like scrooge mcDuck, without the scrooge, or the webbed feet. Life is good for me now, I have lots to be grateful for. 70-degree days, nice friends that surrond me, living as free as a gander of geese. Still I yearn for something. In the immediate future, my roommates will be moving into a collective and I have decided to look into my options. Something bothers me, I can't quite put my finger on it. I guess I'm a little afraid that if I decide to stay here in SF that I might bore of it soon and yearn for far away places. The truth is I yearn to be abroad. Somewhere really foreign. No other US city will do this time. This traveler wants a taste of what's out, out, way out there. Well, for the time being, I will continue to explore my various hobbies in hopes to turn them into passions. |
August 01, 2006
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